2020 has been a shit show.

I know it’s been 8 months, give or take, since I last posted. A lot has happened in that time frame.

My hot water heater blew up in January, which killed off the better part of my flooring in the hall and dining room. We got contractors in just before this virus-from-hell came to our state and it took until mid-July to get it completed. But there was other stuff going on behind the scenes:

I lost a good portion of my team at work due to layoffs. I got falsely accused of trying to make my boss look bad (total sham), which created a work environment that I could not longer be a part of (early retirement), and have watched people on both sides of the political fence lose their collective shit.

One of these days I’ll fill you in on much of the preceding paragraph outlines, but now? Now, I want to speak my mind.

I don’t know the political leanings of anyone still hanging on as a follower of this all-but-abandoned blog. To be honest? I really don’t care.

Shit has gotten so incredibly real in this country in 2020 that I don’t even really recognize my country anymore.

Mom, I know you will get an email when this posts, and you probably will want to just close this window when it comes up, or just opt not to read going forward.

I am the lone wolf daughter/sister/cousin/niece of a primarily democrat family, apparently. I am not proud of that. If they are sheep? I’m the black one. (BSLM – Black Sheep Lives Matter). I found that I was either unfriended or blocked by left-leaning cousins some years ago when I voted for Trump the first time.

Here comes the conspiracy theorist in me:

This virus was released on the world just under a year ago. It has created enemies within families. It was a given.

Initially, I thought it was released to wreak havoc on the US 2020 election, but I believe it goes deeper than that. I have a child who IS a total conspiracy theorist who called this years ago, and I laughed at him, sort of. I’m sorry, Boo. I stand corrected. He talked about the New World Order (NWO) and I thought he was over the top. Now I’m eating my words. I agree with him that this is something that will enable the mighty powers that be to create such a world.

I retired early from my healthcare job in mid-September of this year. I mean, why not? This year took my hot water heater, my floors, my staff and my job, ultimately. Now it’s taken my freedom to move about like a normal 2019 person. I wore a mask for TWO shifts at work. I have hand hygiene embedded in my brain like nobody’s business. I wear a mask to my once-weekly grocery trip out of my house.

Yet, here I am, homebound, with some crazy symptoms: day 1, fatigue; day 2, nausea, vomiting, low grade fever, loss of taste and smell, cramps and the runs; day 3, low grade fever, fatigue, headache, taste and smell back at 50% and sore throat. Repeat until today, day 12.

I haven’t been out of my house since I went to get the turkey the Saturday prior to Thanksgiving. It was an exceptionally small turkey for two, because our governor banned gatherings of 10 or more. I think my neighbors had more than 10 at their home, because they were fixing plates for their families and some of the needy in our community. I didn’t call the cops on them, much to the dismay of some of my family, because, quite frankly? What they do in their home is none of my damned business. Just sayin’…

I’ve been watching videos of election night live voter fraud, that the Left is claiming is a farce, to which I call utter and complete bullshit.

Our governor (that would be Dan Pooper Scooper Cooper) has shut us down a little more, effective Friday, 12/11 with a 10pm-5am curfew. (You know, because COVID only comes out at night with the rest of the freaks, right?)

This is NOT living. I don’t know what kind of bug I’ve got. It could be the flu but it could be COVID, just as easily (because of the loss of taste and smell and carousel gastro symptoms), but I’ve had a couple of covid tests and they weren’t fun, so I’m just doing common sense self-care. I don’t want to add to the already scary statistics the powers that be are using to scare the population into abiding to the unconstitutional mandates that are being constantly put into effect in my state.

Even if I weren’t sick? It STILL wouldn’t be living. Life is not staying home, avoiding people, avoiding the beach, vacations, restaurants, traditional holiday gatherings, etc. This all just SUCKS! If you’re sick, just stay the hell home and calm down. If you’re not sick, go live your lives. This crap is completely unconstitutional and delusional. Go live your lives! Go to the beach. Go to your favorite restaurants, if they are able to be open. Don’t curl up in you homes and mentally die!

If you do, they have won. Up until I got sick? I wore my mask and did what the mandates said, yet I still got sick, so to hell with them. Screw the establishment! Go live your lives! To let your local governments run your lives is NOT living! As soon as I’m fever-free 24 hours? We are going to the beach! I don’t care how cold it is there. It still beats how cold it is in my backyard, which I’ve seen enough of over the past several weeks.

SCREW THE ESTABLISHMENT!!!!

Until next time…